"Target"ing sleep...zzz..zz..zz.z...

Gile...can u imgaine my last blog was on october!! Beuh...I'm gonna try to fill my blog more frequently now yaa..sorry sorry deh.. But now that I'm free from the torture of school and the HSC its kinda boring.. Nothin to do at home and if I go out then eventually I would use up my money on food (Max Brener yummmmiiieeee...) Tapi ya... I'm thankful buanget to my Heavenly Dad for giving me a job in Target!! Yay...today@4.30@eastgardens will be the orientation.. im so excited coz im pretty bored with Mc'D now. It seems everyone's prayers for jobs are all being granted ya... Ronald juga baru dapet kerja juga di UTS ckckck...so now we have Christina in UNSW and Ronald in UTS.. mana yg dapet ke USYD donk?!?! I'm going there next year so maybe you can give me a few extra marks huehuehuee...just kidding =P well...i gotta put up the clothes now, the weather is making me nuts (thunder storm one day and boiling hot the next day...eughhh) ttyl everyone...God bless..

p.s: can someone give me stella's blog hehe..i wanna read it =P
p.s.s: I hope everyone who is sick gets well soon (sleep early carrots!! and u too cha hehe...)

What is love?

Jarang juga ya gw ngeblog...tapi hari ini lagi pengen sharing deh.. tapi masih harus pake ingrris ya..

Well for the past few days, God has been teaching me on what love truly means. What does it mean to love someone? Maybe not romantically, or even in a friendship, but what does it mean to love someone unconditionally? I realised something when God showed me through an experience I had. Last week, my best friend fell sick and the thing is that before this we weren't that close becasue we sometimes have arguements. But the moment she became sick, for some reason something broke inside of me, and all of a sudden I didn't care one bit about who I am, where I was or what I was going through. All I felt was that I just had to be close to her to help her get well. My heart was pained just to see her sick, and throughout the whole time, I had no idea why but I didn't really care.

It was this time that God finally spoke into my heart. When you "truly" love someone, whether it be a girlfriend/boyfriend, parents, family, friends or your spouse, it suddenly has nothing to do with you. Its not about how tired you feel, or how much you're hurt, what others will think or anything like that, not even if they love you back or not. It becomes all about that person no matter what happens. So suddenly the question comes upon my heart, do I truly love God? Do I surrender all I have to Him? Am I selfish in the way that I think or act? Is it all about Him?

So now Jesus' love for us is slightly more revealed to me. He lived as if He lived for us. When He died on the cross, the last thought on His mind wasn't "Would they love me back?"

... it was simply "I love you"

How great is our God!!

Wew...its been awhile since I've blogged, over 1 month already (since July I think). Things sure have changed even in 1 month though. The Lord gives and He takes away but my heart will choose to say "Lord blessed be Your name!!" I think right now God is teaching me another important lesson on what a lifestyle of worship truly is. I realise that to surrender everything into His hands, it means that we must let go of all things in our hands. When we say we "need" Him, we must truly consider every tiny action we do in our lives and say to ourselves "Is this what God wants me to do? Is God behind this action? Behind this word? Am I really doing this without Him?" It truly challenges me to the point when I say to myself "Is what I'm thinking about, something that is dependant on Him? Or is it just my selfishness in thought?" and for all those who know me well, they know that I think ALOT!! Right now I miss one of my friends terribly, I'm not sure the reasons behind her actions, but I have learnt to stop thinking about those things and trust in God for all things. I'm sure His plan for our friendship goes beyond what I can ever imagine. I thank God for His faithfulness and mercy in me. It seems no matter how big a problem is, in the end it glorifies God in some way or another. How great is our God!!

Hillsong conference rocks!!

wah gile...capek man!!! I'm staying over at Ika's house for the whole week for the conference and so far it has been a BLAST!! Especially the grand opening where they had really cool dances and the music was awesome (sayang juga cha.. =P) but you should see how many people are going!! It's crazy!! 28,500 people!!! Practically an army of God.. SO AWESOME!!! and the speakers are so cool! I'm getting equipped with loads of stuff but it gets really tiring because it starts at 9am and finishes at 9pm. wew... gotta prepare for homecell tomorrow (buset harus ngomong indo lagi ahhhhh!! Tuhan tolong!!) Can't wait to get back and share loads of stuff with you guys! Pray for me and Ika k? We're both a bit sick =P

And that's all that mattered.

It's been awhile since I've blogged again. I usually can't be bothered but today I'm stuck at home sick and I don't have much to do...just want to share about what's been going on. I've just read Icha's blog and it's so true how time goes soooo quickly. I've only got another 4 months worth of school left and that's it! The only difference is that Icha wants the time to go past whilst I want it to go as slow as possible. It seems that God is teaching me to live everyday as if it's your last cos my visa application got rejected and this year could be my last year in Aus *hiks* Now I see everything and everyone so differently. Everytime I ask God for hint of my future, He always says to me that it will be different to everyone else, not just ministry and a job, but something amazing and special planned for me. It's what I've always wanted actually. But I also sense that with this gift there will be alot more hardships and trouble that I have to go through. Right now I feel a storm coming up. A really tough one and I'm waiting on the Lord to strengthen me. I'm never worried about that though coz it seems everytime when I am in my deepest and darkest and loneliest moments in my life, when no one else was there for me, He carried me and held me close, and that's all that mattered.

Loving You

Oh beautiful God..
How much my heart longs for You!!
How much my spirit yearns for You!!
In this world where all things are so superficial and empty,
You alone are so real to me,
You alone complete me!

Worshiping You makes me fall in love with you more,
Praising You makes my heart leap with joy,
Seeing You makes me cry,
Touching You makes me forget about the whole world,
Loving You makes me.

A man after God's own heart

Man...I just realised I haven't filled my blog for a long time...Sorry Cath, I've been so busy balancing my life to the right proportions I've forgotten to share =P Dw, I got stacks to share now. Firstly, there is the CCC conference for a whole week. Soooooo exciting to see a generation of young people that are soooooo on fire for God!! Makes me on FIRE as well!! And these people are like 19 - 23 years old yet they are so mature, men and women of God already!! I decided that I'm gonna be like them... I'm not gonna wait till I'm old to become awesome for God. They sacrificed everything they have, their futures, their hopes and dreams that they may be used by God. I could really tell the difference between two people who are the same age yet they are so different in God. For one, I saw this 19yr old girl and even though shes only 19, shes already a youth leader!! Crazy!! No wonder they get married at the age of 20 and 21.. They are already MEN and WOMEN of God... Not children anymore. I look to myself and wonder if I can become even more awesome than they are.

I also finished my 40days of fasting with the Purpose Driven Life last week!! It tells us that a person's life should consist of 5 things and these things should be equally balanced: WORSHIP, MINISTRY, MISSION, FELLOWSHIP and DISCIPLESHIP!! Right now I'm trying to balance it all together but it really takes alot of sacrifice. I really wanna impact my friends at school by starting a bible study there every lunch time but at the moment I'm praying to God for more courage and strength. It's my last year in school after all!!

Right now, I feel soooooooo hungry for God, starving! Every time I leave His presence, I just feel so empty and thirsty that it makes me even more desperate for God. I just can't get enough of Him!!! I really have this urge to have a heart like David's heart for some reason, that's why I've been studying how His heart is. I realised that David had a heart of a warrior, poet and servant. And he was able to bring out the best of everyone around him, he was an awesome leader that everyone looked up to and for some reason it was as if David found God's Holy Spirit even before Jesus went back to heaven [Psalm 51:11]. And the coolest thing was that even God considered Him as "a Man after My own heart". Awesome aye!!

"Cause the enemies been defeated,
And death couldn't hold You down,
Gonna lift our voice in victory,
Gonna make Your praises loud!

Shout out to God with a voice of triumph!!
Shout out to God with a voice of praise!!
Shout out to God with a voice of triumph!!
We lift Your name up!! We lift Your name up!!"

RETREAT!!!

I've always wondered why a "retreat" is called a retreat. Guess its because we retreat from the world we live in to a place where we can focus on the one thing that matters most in our lives: God. Well, on the 8th April 2005, LBCM went on our retreat labelled "Bangkitlah & Bercahayalah" ("Rise and Shine").

It started out as a busy day, alot of packing and unpacking. Muscles bulging and sweat dropping we managed to move all the equipment needed from church to the conference room. With the help of Caroline's "White Rabbit" candy and Daniel's "Choco Pie", we managed to have enough energy to play a game of basketball, or two. Chicken Express and some dilluted cordial were our dinner and so session one started of beautifully. Unfortunately for me and Ko Alex, we were in charge of putting people to sleep. What a tough job man!! So many naughty people sneaking out (I think I caught Daniel sneaking out at least 5 times that night =P ) but it wasn't only the youth that were naughty, some of the Tante2 and Om2 didn't want to go to sleep as well. Aiya!! My reward was half a container of home-made martabak!! Yummm... (To the chef: I like chocolate and peanuts better thanks =P hahaha... Thanks chef! Beaut mate!!)

(I just realised this is going to be a long blog so be patient hehehe...) The next day started off nicely also. It seems that waking people up is easier than putting them to sleep (Darn kalongs! Hehehe). For me, since I'm fasting, I couldn't eat till 3pm. Most of the day I played basketball and took care of the kids (It seems there's a part of me that still loves being a Sunday school teacher. Love those kids!! So naughty yet so cute!) Session 2 and 3 followed shortly. The preacher was really good, really garink euy!! Real crispy at times! Ha3.

We were also split into 4 groups and had to organise an act by the end of the day so we didn't have much free time but it was good anyway. I made another bro that day, Ronald my man!!! So crazy, so funny!! Which brings me to one of the most important events of the day: the baptism of 5 very special people. Denny, Ronald, Reza (Atep. Roof?), William and Mimi. Many blessings to you my bro's and sis' in Christ!!.Before we knew it, the day ended and the performances started. They're all so good and funny. Before it was my turn to become security again, we had a special presentation for my bro from China, Yogi. I believe we made him cry again. Right Yogi? Hehehe... The night ended with less fuss than yesterday. Many people still sneaking out but I was too sleepy to scream at them =P

Day3 also was a brilliant day. With breakfast and the Sunday service gone, we had another surprise for Yogi: 2 buckets of water!!! Hahaha... Drenched him and poor JJ also. Hihihi... After lunch and a few games of "Chop-Chilli-Chop" everyone went back home to "bobo". Throughout the whole retreat God blessed us with His presence, His spirit and perfect weather! The star's we're beautiful, you could actually see the milky way!

Little do we know that this retreat had been a retreat from ourselves, our world, our lives, our pride and into the heart, the presence, the beauty and the majesty of God. That's what I call a RETREAT!!!

My armor's getting rusty

I just saw the face of God shine down upon me this morning. I cried the moment I saw His holiness and love. And you know the greatest thing He did was that He cried with me. I told Jesus to stop crying and instead smile down upon me because that is my purpose in life: to make Him smile, to make Him proud of me. I told Him that He shouldn't have to cry because He has been through enough suffering for me. He stayed silent and did not say anything. It was then that I realised that though He was crying with me, He also smiled at me.

It was through His holy light that once again I saw myself. I saw that my armor was getting rusty. So this morning I polished it once again. To have the belt of TRUTH, the breastplate of RIGHTEOUSNESS, the feet of READINESS, the shield of FAITH, the helmet of SALVATION and the sword of the SPIRIT. One thing I noticed is that the sword of the spirit never gets rusty, never needs polishing. It's because its not important how shiny the sword is or how sharp it is but rather how you wield that sword. Even though at the moment my armour is still shaby and rusty, I tell you everyone that one day I will be a knight in shining armour! Fighting for His glory, His honour and His kingdom!!

The Beauty of the Lord

Wondering times of trial,
I look to the Lord for revival.
Why? Where? Who?

His beauty I cannot fathom,
Seek it, search for it, come...
Where? Who?

The grace to all, the gift for you,
A meer copy of the true.
Who?

In you.

Cruising week

Hi all... I wanna talk about my week. Firstly on Monday I got a haircut from the famous Eliza Kusmanto.. International hairdresser. She turned me from a nerd to what my friends call a "gungster" (Filo way of saying gangster =P) She was too expensive to pay with money so instead I made her a TimTam's shake (Gloria Jeans style) hehehe.. Then on Tuesday I had a nice long chat with Rhesa (about what you say? well be patient) and on Wednesday I had my lovely powerhouse with a TWIST!! Rhesa was doing edification!!! Go Rhesa! Go Rhesa!! He did a pretty good job considering it was his first time. And finally yesterday, Thursday, we had an awesome cruise hosted by the two lovely Jessica and Han2. Everyone looked gorgeous and spiffy, and the weather given by God was PERFECT!!! Full moon, no wind and the stars came out to dance. All in all, a perfect night out!

JESUSFREAKS!!!

Caaayyoooooo!!! I believe it is time to be the ultimate JesusFreaks that we were created to be once again. For a month now I have been learning stacks of lessons from the Almighty but I was always focusing on the wrong things. Now I realise that IT IS TIME TO BECOME JESUSFREAKS AGAIN!! I can feel my spirit rising!! I can feel my faith rising!! I've had enough of being knocked around by my emotions and the devil with his tricks. I want to F.R.O.G. again (Fully Rely On God!!) for everything: joy, peace, fun, smiles and even tears. I've had enough of people who need to be conformed by the world or by their friends, people who are ruled by their emotions, people who cannot worship Him unless their in a "good" mood or even people who feel lonely in the middle of the crowd. I don't want to be one of those people again. I want to rise up beyond the "natural" and go into the "SUPERNATURAL", not "ordinary" but "EXTRA-ORDINARY" Not ruled, dependant, addicted to anything/anyone BUT GOD!! We were all made for something special, made to BE DIFFERENT from everyone else!! COME ON EVERYONE!! WHO WILL JOIN ME?!?!?! WHO WILL BECOME A JESUSFREAK?!?!?

Another painful lesson learned...

Hi guys... Another thing I learnt from God is that there is nothing that God wants except your broken and empty heart. He did not die on the cross as a price for a heart stuck together on joy or pain, but He paid the price for our broken hearts. If we try to offer up our lives with anything attached, He won't accept it for the simple fact that He didn't pay for it. Only when we give up our broken hearts to Him, even though its extremely painful to empty your heart, then can we be stuck together once again with God's love. So many times I've tried to attach things to my heart in order to please God, but what really pleases Him is your broken heart and that only. Then He will stick it all back together with His love and we will be complete. That's why we have to rely on God and Him only. Stay on fire everyone! Ignite it in your hearts! Do you long for Him in every moment of your lives? Or do you depend on other people's love to cover you? Remember, the greater the pain, the greater the offering to God!!!

Forgetful but blessed!!

Hi guys! Right now I feel so blessed by God banget deh... (ini sharing engkin dari kemarin ^^) Kan dua minggu lalu, gue bete banget krn lagi di testing sama Tuhan (bukan bete marah sih...tapi lebih ke sedih" gitu lah..) Tapi abis di testing dan sudah menang, gue bisa langsung merasa Tuhan itu lebih deket lagi. He takes care of me even in the smallest things like waking me up in the morning even when I already turn-off all my alarms (note the word "alarms" coz I have/need more than one hehehe). And you know what!! Since all year 12's are allowed to go to the city for lunch, me and my friends go down to play some basketball down the road from our school everyday. On one occasion, I accidently left my blazer there which I might add costs $200 and I had my wallet in it which had US$100 in it. Crazy aye!! I was panicking in school like nuts and the moment the bell went I rushed down to the basketball courts and IT WAS STILL THERE!!! Bersyukurlah!!! Man, God takes care of me sooo much!! And even when a few days later I left my glasses down there also, and I found them again. God is soooooo good aye? So many people play at the courts and they didn't even touch it!! I'm glad I have God on my side cos I'm so pikun, kakek" hahaha...

Battles & Fortresses

As you all know, last week I went through one of the greatest battles I've ever faced. It took a lot of strength from me and at times I felt like giving up. Other times I would be strong whilst the devil taunted me. But in the end, THE LORD BROUGHT ABOUT A GREAT VICTORY!!! Wooooohooooooooooo!!!! Man, one thing that I learnt from my experiences with battles is that after you have won a battle in that particular part of you, it becomes one of your strongest points. (Just like if you break a bone, the pain comes first, then healing and finally the bone gets stronger!! You can check my biology book if you don't believe me hahaha..) Well this part of me now is a fortress that is impenetrable by any of the devil's tricks. Strong and mighty is the Lord Amen? He healed me once again and made me realise at His greatness and majesty. So glorious!

Btw, on another topic, my Indo is getting better!!! (not writing yet though...too hard) Try talk to me in Indo and you can tell it's getting better. Sometimes I have to have "permanasan" first though.. so be patient. This is thanks to all my Indo friends at church especially Icha (who forces me to speak Indo with her because she doesn't want to speak english with me ddaaassaaaarr euy!! hahaha.. ngak lah.. Icha baek koq (^.^)\/ peace, peace..jangan di cubit lagi ya? hehe), Rhesa (who helps me with the weirdest Indo words I've ever seen in my whole life, I had a list of all the words he gave me but I lost it *hiks* *hiks* sorry rhesa, you have to tell me again later muahahaha) and Daniel (who always corrrects me if I'm wrong when I'm "kelesek" with my words hahahaha). Thankyou semua!! Keep on teaching me more!!

Joy & Pain

Hi everyone, its been awhile since I've written something in here due to the change of houses hehehe.. but its been a very important month for me. As most of you know, we had the church retreat and there I received a gift from God, Holy laughter. Man it feels like the greatest joy of the world and I couldn't stop laughing. It was such a GREAT joy!! Crazy, never felt anything like that before but it was AWESOME!! That retreat deserved it's name "Higher Ground" indeed.

What came after the retreat was even more important. Just as usual, when God raises you higher, the devil wants to drag you down. So for the whole of this week, God has taught me a lesson I'll never forget in my whole entire life. He took away the most precious gift from me and told me to sacrifice it to Him. It's a really great contrast to the retreat. The greatest pain I have ever felt in my whole life. It felt as if, if God wasn't there for me, I would've just died of grief. It reminds me of the time when Abraham had to sacrifice his son Isaac to God. God was testing his faith and in the last second, saved Isaac from death. I thank God every minute for this pain that I am experiencing. I know it will make me stronger and in the end, my reward will be great.

"Blessed be your name,
in the road marked with suffering,
though there's pain in the offering,
Blessed be your name!"

Need

Need = requirement, necessity, desire, want and more importantly...love (1 Corinthians 13:5-7)

Humilty

Humilty = Realising that without God, you can't do anything, that He is the centre of all joy and love, that emptiness and loneliness will invade your heart if you reject Him and start thinking about yourself.

This week God placed me under fire to be trialed, refining me more and more. It hurt alot but the results are that He has taught me something and has made me stronger. It was about humility and humbleness. During my powerhouse, I started getting self-concious and suddenly it was "all about me" rather than "all about God". So His Spirit left me and at that I was completely lost. As days passed by, His presence left me but it didn't mean that He had forsaken me, never have, never will. But He did it so that I would seek Him. So I did with all my heart, crying out to God. And He came and placed His arms around me telling me that He loved me. It was then that I realised just how much I "NEED" Him.

Sometimes we forget about all the things God has done for us and just how much He loves us. I did. But it always amazes me you know, every time I come to Him:

His love is so great it feels as if He "needs" us.

Maybe its because we cannot imagine the intensity of God's love and so it feels as if He needs us when He really just longs for us. Or maybe when we have the heart of Christ in ourselves, we have the feeling of need in our hearts????

Either way, I realise that I "long for", "desire", "want" and "need" Him in my life. How about you?

Passsssssssion man!!!

Hey all.. haven't written anything for awhile. It's been a hectic week!! But a really good one! Firstly there was my first week of "Passion" powerhouse!! Yay!!! There weren't many people that came but to those who did, I thankyou so much for the support!! I was supposed to speak Indo that day but it was mainly English...hehehe hopefully as the weeks go by, it will be more Indo than english (so my teachers out there! Help me practice!) God placed His vision really strongly for that powerhouse and I'm sure it will unfold this year.

Have you ever felt dry in your heart?? Well, it seemed that the few days after powerhouse, I felt like a dessert!! It was a really dangerous time because it felt as if everything was against me and that God was really far away. If you've ever felt this way, then don't believe in the devil's lies and tricks!!! God is always close and seeking for you no matter what you've done. This time of dryness is the perfect time for praise and worship!! (Just ask Ko James!) Then when you are in the presence of God, your heart will overflow with songs and love for Him!! Lovely isn't it?! hehehe...

I'm moving houses tomorrow!!! Asyik man!! lebih deket ke sekolah, gereja and my indo friends!! Hehe so it means I can pratice my Indo even more!!! Tapi skarang, rumah di Liverpool keliatan kaya kapal pecah (is that rite? kapal pecah??) masih banyak barang yang harus di sortir dan di packing. Oh yeah! Rhesa is back!!! Sweeeeet dude! Another indo teacher! Time to get our "passion" on fire for God!!! Hahaha.. (see...it works both ways)

Last day of holiday. First day of...

Beuh!! Hari ini hari akhir holiday gue... koq waktu keliatan nya lebih cepat sih... everything goes by soooo quickly. Soon will be the start of my first day of yr12 and then....HSC!!! AHHHHHH!!!! It feels like yr7 was yesterday and now I'm going for the LAST year of school. What to do afterwards, I still don't know yet. My want is that I can go to Bible College and work full time ministry (how cool will that be... serving His ministry 24/7) but ofcourse I will follow God's will. Wherever He wants me to go, whether it be Uni or even cooking class or even hairdressing (God bless me!), I will still be a Planetshaker there Hehehe....

This year indeed will be a year of acceleration. I can feel it in the air. God says that there is a time for everything and this year I believe it will be a time for growing and perseverance. Many things in store for 2005:
1) Revolution - my teen ministry!! Getting pumped soon!
2) Passion - hhooooorrrreeeee!! Powerhouse starting this wednesday!!
3) More worship leading practice - getting better I hope
4) Guitar practice with Hillsong - MAD stuff aye??
5) YOUTH CAMP!!! - Awesome stuff!!
6) CHURCH RETREAT!!! - A few oldies but still AWESOME!!! and
7) CCC conference - another spiritual "BOOST"

Busy year or what aye?! Can't wait to get started!!

Fishing & B.B.Q

Firstly I wanna thank God soooooooo much for giving us a great time with great weather and great people. I thank Him also for giving me the ability to organise the B.B.Q since usually I'm the worst at organising. He is good indeed!!!

Well here's the rundown of what happened for everyone who didn't attend:
1.) Fishing the tuesday night at RoseBay at 10pm till 2am... Ko Chung Hauw is a legend. Caught sooo many fish by himself. I waited a long time but I finally caught ONE and then it escaped and my line went in the water!! I'm still happy though :D Learnt an important lesson that night: perseverance always gets rewarded! Hehehe...

2.) We finished at 2am and me, mum and nina nginep di tempat ella and ko alex. Bangun" jam 8, di jemput sama Daniel dan cowok" pergi ke Centenniel Park for preparation. Kasihan banget gak? si Han2 udah di sono dari jam 7. Dia nunggu di sono buat booking the place. We prepared the places and got all the food and "yum yums". Si Joshua bikin fruit saladnya bagus sekali (with a little help by his dad hehee...still good!)

3.) Orang" baru dateng jam 11 dan kita main satu ice breaker. Then straight into benteng"an. Wah...rame banget. Si Han jago banget deh... everyone returned to the B.B.Q place all sweaty and smelly (even the gals hahaha...!). But no worries its eating time and everyone enjoyed really good food!! Cooked by Mr.Handy himself.

4.) Next onto games again but this time di split into 4 groups. Mini games of "Honey, I love you". I have to say the best at that was Daniel himself. Got 4 people sooo quickly. Must have had experience before aye?? ; ) next game was "mother goose"...MUAHAHAAH!! the best game i think... tiring but sooo funny. All the Aussies around us were staring at us. Hahaha... kasihan banget lihat si Joshua lawan temen Boost yang gede banget!!

5.) Well that was the end of the games and everyone was too tired to play another hehehe... so it was packing and cleaning up time. A few minutes later everyone bubar. Great day...around 40 ppl came. Lots of fun!! Finished around setengah 3. Most of the girls went to the beach and the guys went to play some billiard... hehehe

Personally i wanna thank Han han heaps for his preparation and ALL the guys for doing a superb job!!! Thanks guys!!

Offering finally!!!

Aduuuuhhhh!!!! Seneng banget deh hari in...hehehe since I don't work and don't get any pocket money, I can't put any money in the offering bag : ( BUT today (since I didn't spend all my going out money with Titi and Icha) I could finally put some money in the bag. Only $20 but it was enough!! For some reason I have never felt this way before... all the time I've put something in for offering I would just feel normal but this time...just the thought of being able to offer some money to God gave me soooo much joy it felt as if my heart was going to leap out of my chest (gila gak?!?!) hahaha... oooo man I love God soo much...

Oya... any indos tttooooollllloooonnnngggg donk!! ngomong indo sama gue... udah sedikit improve nih... tapi masih perlu banyak practice!! kakunya bujret!! kalo bisa les engkin then please do so!! nanti kalo belajar sendiri bisa kacau nih... i'll pay u in guitar lessons if u want huahuahauahuah..... : P

this weekend is such a great weekend deh.. bisa main pool sama Daniel and Icha abis itu ke rumah ella untuk ngobrol lagi... and finally sleep over in the Kusmanto's place! Di rumah bosen banget... nothing to do. So I'm happy and very joyful! Peace out everyone (^.^)\/

Mowing the devil!!!

Man, today was a crazy day!! Mowing!! Yes, you heard me right, mowing. It took me about half and hour to start that crazy machine and the grass was sooooo... long that it was really hard to move the mower. At the end of the day I was covered with these white seeds (stupid weeds with flowers...u know the ones where when the wind blows, all the fluff flies off) and I had blisters on my hands (they were like round and filled with water...yuk!) but at the end of the day, the grass was shreded and I had a shower..s'all good!!

I'm still in shock of being the new cell leader. Man... I had no idea!!! My mouth was open for like half and hour!!! Even now, I can tell that the devil is trying to place lies in my head...saying that "I'm too young to be a cell leader" but I realised if God can use a donkey, He can surely use me!! I'm actually really excited and can't wait for God's power to move. I hope this cell can grow and grow and grow!! Change people's lives and make them bold for Christ. A training ground for Jesus Freaks!!! Come and visit anyone!! Stuff the devil...He's nothing compared to my JC!!

"Cry Holy"

Hey guys!! I know blogs are meant to be about ourselves and our daily lives and stuff but I can't help it... GOD IS GOOD!!!! I just can't stop myself from loving Him more and more. I'm obsessed every night. Seriously every night, even if I want to go to sleep and its like 1:00am (and by this time I would be really sleepy) theres something inside of me that just cannot sleep without spending time with JESUS!!! Love 'im to bits!! Gotta pick up my guitar (which I have now relocated next to my bed so I can play in the dark while laying down) and WORSHIP HIM!!!

There's this mad song by the "Planet Shakers" and its called "Cry Holy". Wish I could teach it to y'all. The words are really good and its been stuck in my head for several days now. It goes:
"Wonderous mystery in the pages of history
Of a man who bled and died for me.
Its more than a story,
He's the One who hung upon a tree.
His crimson flow poured out for me,
Gave His life to set me free"

and it keeps on going but that's the best part. It really does show the great of a sacrifice that Jesus gave for us.

p.s: you guys might be wondering about the poem below. Just decided to type it up..hehehe.. old poem I've had for awhile. Supposed to be directed to a girl but can also be for God.

p.p.s: anyone wanna use it for a girl (thats right Herman I'm talking to you :P) you can use it!! Hehehe...

How You Love Me

You are the sun that always
seems to brighten up my day.
You are my shining star above,
perfect in every way.
No matter where I am, what I do,
or what I try to say,
One thing always stays with me -
how you love me in that way.

PLANETSHAKERS!!!!!!

PLANET SHAKERS!!! Let's get our praise on!!! For all those that don't know yet, me and a few other church people went to the greatest youth conference held in Sydney, PLANET SHAKERS! It was the most awesome conference man! The Holy Spirit was moving so strongly in that place, changing every single person in that place even from thevery first night!! Most of us we're just thrown down at the majesty of God, we HAD to fall on our knees and cry "HOLY IS THE LORD!!" (that's why I have a sore throat now). Great is our God, Amen? Amen!

The praise and worship at that place was incredible aswell. Non-stop jumping practically and the thing was that, all the youth there brought the praise INTO the house of God!! Before the band was even on, they were already jumping up & down to the CD they were playing! Crazy aye?

I believe that we have the ability to change our church dramatically. We have to start seeking God more and more in our church and our homecells (not just new people). We have to have David's heart: A heart after God. We have to be desperate for Him in our lives. Make Him the air we breathe, the blood in our veins, the food we eat, the water we drink and the joy we jump to! Only then can we truly be PLANET SHAKERS!!

COME ON PLANETSHAKERS!!! LET'S GET OUR PRAISE ON FOR HE IS HOLY & WORTHY OF ALL OUR WORSHIP AND HONOUR!!!

Amazing grace...

I've just been thinking about the tsunami and how it must feel for those hundreds of thousands of people that have lost their family and friends. I thank God so much for keeping me alive for another day. We take things for granted sometimes I guess without realising it, even salvation. I've been thinking alot about salvation for the past few days. Sometimes I feel ashamed to take it even though in my head I know God loves me so much. I sin many times, daily and yet its still on offer even through all the imperfections of our lives. Well I have come to a conclusion.

The answer is simple yet beautiful. God's love extends that of unworthiness, of imperfections, of shamefulness and most importantly, sin (The only thing that truly separates us from God). We say sometimes that "no one's perfect" but we have to be perfect. Everytime we stand in awe in God's presence, we are perfect. If we are not perfect when we stand in front of him then we will just be toast, literally. He makes us all perfect even when we don't deserve it. To think that He created us humans even though He knew in advance that we would sin aganist Him. Amazing grace aye?

"He gives,
and takes away.
May the name of the Lord be praised!"

Love, parties and fish???

Hey all!! Sorry I haven't updated my blog for a long time but i was fasting technology as a B'Day present for God!! Its been tough man not to touch the computer or not to look at it (Diana and Nina's reading comics from the net) but it's worth it!!!

I am in love to the most beautiful, exquisite, gorgeous and absolutely most lovely being in the whole universe at the moment!! Who else would fit the description but God...hehehe. I've been close to Him before but never this close and it feels like I'm flying on air. And the good thing is that GOD LOVES ME BACK!!! (one hundredfold i might say!!) Such a feeling i've never experienced before. Everytime I get near him my heart beats a million times a second. OOHHHH...how i wish everyone could experience it!!! This i might say (a bit late i know) is the true meaning of Christmas. Knowing in ur heart that the being that created the universe became nothing for us!!! crazy aye?!?! Thats why I love him so much!! beyond anything on earth or heaven!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR '05 EVERYONE!!!!! I hope God blesses everyone more and more!! I've actually made some New Years resolution one of which is to be able to speak indo fluently...soooo Indo people help me!!! I need to make this work hehehe...!! cannot waste "talents" that God has given me (reference in bible). Btw, everyone should've came and slept over with us at Jess' house. Great party!! Chips, drinks, cards, talcum powder, photos and great fun. Slept at 5.30 in the morning after watching movies. U should've seen me at p&w practice later that day. I was practically sleeping standing up with the guitar strapped on my shoulders hahahaha....

Oh yeah... we also went fishing a few days before new years. It was so windy and cold but a great night of fishing anyways. It was Herman's night: 7 fish i believe. It was as if God was helping him (5 second dips man!! maybe he fasted so that he could catch heaps of fish hahaha)
But even better was that the next day... we bbq all the fish at Jess' place and it tasted great!! Good job Herman!!