Thankyou for Emmanuel

Such is the ending of another great journey. One that I am very grateful for Lord. I have seen so much of You in the world, in people and in me. Lord you believe in us with such faith and you love us with such intensity. As I was overlooking the sunset at Darwin, I realise that we must each ask ourselves 2 questions if we want to change.

1. Do you seek God's face in every decision? (I ask myself "Do I want to accept the risks and challenges for the sake of knowing my Lord more?"
2. Do you believe He will show up to save the day?

The faith that saves and the faith that pleases. I was listening to that song "You'll come" and the words rang deep in my soul.

As surely as the sun will rise You'll come to us
As certain as Your word endures

And I recall once again His law, His character in my heart once more.
God is a God who loves to save. He is like a Prince who saves the princess from the dragon just in the nick of time. He is mighty to save. He WANTS to come through for us in every circumstance.

Its just up to us whether we will wait for Him to come (and waiting does not mean distracting yourself with another god until He "arrives"), or whether we will choose another "god" to save us from our peril.

Yes and Amen God!! Yes and Amen.

With everything...

I think Im having a pity party at the moment so please excuse me...

Do u ever get the feeling, that you can be so much better? That potential runs in your vein? You know what is right, you know that you can do what is right but in the end you end up doing the opposite even though you don't mean it? I feel that way alot and I wonder is it bcos I don't have enough determination in me, or is it because the way I think is wrong, or is it because I'm not capable..
(I think if I was God i'd be sick of this guy named franklin hahaha)

Well I understand now how Paul feels when he said "I do what I don't want to do and I don't do what I want to do". Its like a frustrating rock in your shoe, a shirt with an itchy tag or a pimple on the tip of your nose...

God i know u listen to all our prayers and u look upon us with eyes of love. I just want to say sorry (for the thousandth time) and take up my cross once more..

Cos even a rock in your shoe can be taken out, an itchy tag in your shirt be cut off and all wounds be healed..

For ASLAN!!!

I just watched Narnia: Prince Caspian last night and it spoke sooo much to me..
-How King Peter charges forward towards his own battle plans shouting "FOR NARNIA!!"
-How he failed and managed to get his allies killed along the way
-How he realises that only with Aslan can he win the battle
-How they shouted "FOR ASLAN!!" and charged for their cause and ended up victorious.

It dawned on me that sometimes in my life I go round and round in circles tryin to do my best for...for what? that i may look good as a Christian? to do the right thing? for who? me?

EVERYTHING is FROM Him
EVERYTHING is THROUGH Him
EVERYTHING is FOR Him

Im going to try and live my life now...not for this city...not for my vision...not for the lost...cos they all lose meaning...

If i dont live for Him.

Let's go!

Alrity alrity...the start of journaling once more (i note that theres a red squigly line under the word journaling and when i right click, there are no correct ways to spell it meaning, I dont think the word journaling exists ahahaha anyway....)
I remember I used to have a green diary and I'd write in it everyday sooooo... this shouldn't be too hard....rite?

Today God showed me a vision of myself, holding a mike and preaching passionately to ppl in front of me. And despite the size of the crowd in front of me, the point I take from it all was the feeling when i got the vision. He still believed in me! Despite all the mistakes i've done in my life and the mistakes i will do, His faithfulness stands strong, unwavering and comes crashing down on me overflowing my heart and soul.

And here I was having a pity party.

Dungeons and Dragons

Wuah once again I fail at keeping my blog updated hahaha.. maybe abit too lazy for it aye?huammm...well let me try once again =)

Place: Engineering Library computer number ENG13
Time: 11:20 waiting for my 12 o,clock chem lecture
Hunger: wuaaaahhh no breakfast 2/10 hehe which means freezing hands
Sleepiness: 7/10 not too bad hehe

Feeling: now this is a hard one...can I change a nation? we all wanna be planetshakers and history-makers rite? will i be boastful about what i can do?ofcourse not! i will boast about the impossible things cos God always ALWAYS works in the impossible...but for now i will boast about my weaknesses...

Weakness: Too soft, sometimes unconfident, sometimes proud...these are not the traits of a planetshaker...but He does so much in my life...

Feeling (again): I want to raise this nation...maybe not my heart's desire...my heart's desire would be to be a leading astronomer in NASA or a rich chemical engineer or something hehe... but ever since that day I met Him...He has just changed everything and now i know not to hope or dream but to look into His heart and see what plans He has for me...the curvatures of His heart...how He feels and reacts...what makes Him smile...
The beginning of this year i vowed (if i may say that) to follow in His vision for me...not let anything get in the way... be a David... and along my path i found a wounded gal... i decided to help her and be a source of light...show her the way to a Greater light.. the closer and closer i got to her..the more i see such beauty and purity...even if she doesnt realise it herself...but that beauty is locked up inside a high tower...where dragons and monsters roam.. I asked my dad if I could rescue this beauty... He answers me with one word to silence me..."patience" so for a moment my heart was torn in two as I had to walk away from that tower and into a greater battle...the battle for a nation...a battle for a generation...a war for Knights whose names were Holyness, Zeal, Courage and Strength...for Princesses whose names were Captivating, Lovely, Truth and Beauty...

And though I don't look back... My heart wonders... Will that princess wait for me to return? To the time when I can finally slay all the dragons...champion all the monsters...brave every danger...risk my whole life in rescuing that Fair Maiden... whose beauty is dazzling and can melt the heart of those around her... Will I be her strength? Will she be my support through the future battles? Can I sweep her away on my steed and adventure deeper into His heart? Will she wait and prepare herself for me? Will she be as patient as I?

Less of me...& more of You

Huahhh...dah lama bgt nih gk ngeblog (as always lah..hehe) but tonite its really early, only like 9:30 and im bored at the moment. Td asyik juga sih...the "Tjhin"'s had a Japanese night including: sashimi yummm...unagi..miso soup..really good japanese rice (yummm...so legit and i added mayo in it so its extra creamy hehe..) and to finish it off, we had plum wine and home made green tea ice-cream ala nina huehue...jadinya in the end kenyang buaaaanget!! (and still full atm)

this week so many things happened..some good some bad tapi even the bad things seem not too bad in the end sih...ill explain..

bad thing: i got bell's palsy where one half of my face is frozen...and cant taste food properly

good thing: i learnt not to take things for granted and started doing devotional@7am as Han2 the handy man as my accountable brother hehe

bad thing: tried to get a 3 phone...but got rejected for no apparent reason

good thing: God's way of telling me that its not my time to be cerewet yet hahahahaha...

well as u can see...its been a busy week full of events and thingamajigies.. but im still thankful to God for all these thigns coz they keep me appreciate His grace and mercy even more...sooooo to all out there who:
1) Can smile: then please smile alot for me coz mines is half a face short lol
2) Can taste good food: please tell that person who cooked for you that their food is good!! coz for me, even if i wanted to tell them its good..i cant!! hehe..
and finally
3) If you've got a 3 phone: stop taking pictures of urself coz u probably already have enough!(*cough* *cough* not mentioning any names hehehe..) and appreciate all that God has to offer to u...e.g.friends, family and other cool things like trees (explore the artist inside of u...^^) rite guys?

well im off.. keep strong friends... and in times of trouble... come to Him whose got the whole world in His hands...including yours =) ("you" especially ok? take care.. dont work too much k? ^^ )

cheers!

Because you're worth it... 

Blessings come

Yay!!! I'm so thank God soooooooooooo much.. I finally got a job!! Woohoo...thats the good part, the bad part is that im working with Diana.. hehehe....nah its not too bad i guess working with my sis, making salads, cutting up watermelon, serving millionaires (the sumo salad is at the MLC center so the only people that go there can afford $9 salads for snacks...meh) Im working with so many Indians and Bangladesh people, they're a funny bunch though and very fast with the salad tongs. If anyone wants some salad just ask me yeah? Hehe.. Well Uni's gonna start next week and its time to start waking up early again, doing assignments, studying and everything in between. Let's all gambate, ciayooo and do our best yeah? For Him and Him alone ok? Take care...

The girls in my life!

So I'm back now.. I'll update you guys on what's been on my mind lately. One thing I've learnt these past few weeks is that you can only be as holy as you are with your family.. *teehee* This is a really important lesson for me. And made me realise what a wonderful family I have. I am so blessed to have such pretty + gentle hearted sisters that supports me in everything I do. I don't know what I'll do without them. Like seriously guys.. if uz read this.. I'm truly thankful (=

Oh and before I forget lately.. I've been spending a lot of time with Caroline.. she's such a wonderful person to be with.. she's always full of smiles, has a carefree spirit and she makes my sisters happy.. which makes me happy (=

Bored

Hei guys im back again hahahah.... im at home at the moment with my net "freshly" connected, carrots on one side, diana on the other, rhesa on the loudspeaker phone and denny on the msn... discussing what to do on a sunday's afternoon...still confused...buggering denny for my pink gel directly imported from bandung... rhes wants me to comment on his blog.. bah...now i dont know what to say...so this will be it for now y'all